living my childhood dream

November 27th, 2009 by ferninda-kepang2

There was an email in my NUS account titled “living your childhood dream” or something like that. I didn’t know who the speaker was and even though I was not interested to come, I was struck by the title of the email.

living your childhood dream..

What is your childhood dream?

I always want to be a teacher. Being a teacher is my dream since people started to ask me,”What do you want to be?” I always think that teacher is the most multi-talented person in the world. Hahaha.. Maybe because when I was in primary 1-3, the teacher taught ALL subjects!! and for me, teacher was almost perfect. They didn’t only teach me how to count, but they also taught me how to be polite, and etc.

I grew up.. Time passed by..

When I was in secondary school, people asked me the same question, and I answered the same thing,”I want to be a teacher.” Then my mom started to comment on how teachers are treated in Indonesia, how they usually have low salary, but the interesting thing is,my mom also told me that teacher does not always mean that I have to stand in front of the class and teach a class of 30 students.

then I was looking for other dreams..

Some people suggested architecture, but I didn’t like it. Some people suggested to learn accounting and said that auditors are very rich, but I didn’t like to sit in the office, and that’s what I feel now.

I was surrounded by ‘psychology-people’ (why I don’t say psychologist?coz they are not psychologist..hehehe). My piano teacher,Kak Lily, used to study psychology and my leadership trainer, Kak Lulu, also studied psychology. Then, there was one period when I had a great time with Bee and I became more interested in learning psychology.

During my hard time learning piano, I always remembered that I want to know more about music therapy and autism.. and here I am.. I am studying psychology, but I have not touched the old piano in function hall this semester. Sometimes the more I play the piano there, the more I miss my piano at home. I know it’s an excuse, the score stand is very lousy (ahhh dunno what it’s called, u know..the place where u put ur music sheet on the piano)..and I just had my piano after learning piano for 5 years..

I feel very guilty..I don’t continue playing piano now..

ahh..of course..I’ve never thought of being a pianist. Playing piano is just a hobby..But as I stated in the previous post, sometimes you just miss the thing that you used to do..

at the same time, when I look back, I’ve realized how I have learned so many new things in Singapore. I have had a lot of new experiences in 1.5 years. It’s very nice,, I really feel that I am stepping out of my comfort zone..

During my time learning traditional dance in Indonesia, I have never dreamed more than 1x week CCA. Yes, I did love dancing, but the highest dream that I’ve ever had was only performing outside Indonesia coz that time our dance teacher offered a chance to perform in Turkey or Netherland, I think some kinds of street festival. Due to one and another thing, it was not feasible for us.

Here in Singapore, for the first time, I tried dancing hip hop and contemporary dance last year. However, how I miss Indonesian dance has made me involved in this NUS Indonesian Association stuff. and wow..i just realized..I performed in Singapore..HAHAHAHA..

but now it’s more than dancing..it’s a passion to know more about Indonesia. It’s not only about performing or maybe entertaining, but now it’s about the values beyond the dance. there is a desire to understand more about my culture and I feel that somehow it helps me to understand more about my people and myself.. ahh..maybe I’m influenced by the module that I take this semester, ARts of Southeast Asia. Now that I’m “wasting” $30/hour to learn Javanese dance…why I wrote “wasting?”.. coz for most people, it’s a waste..hellowww..$30/hour x 4 = $120 = my part-time salary IF i work minimum 17 hours per month..

but it’s not a waste for me..I don’t know why..I don’t think I want to be a dancer, I don’t know why I insist that I should take this chance and learn..but I just feel so happy..so relieved..every Monday I wake up early, go to my dance teacher’s house, go back-bath-lunch-go to class..it’s a new habit, I just feel so happy..but I’m so afraid that I will stuck in the middle..that one day I will stop like how I stop playing piano..hikzzz…

then I tried to convince myself, that all the time that i have spent to learn this and that is not wasted..whatever things that will happen in the future, there’s always a lesson behind..sometimes it’s expensive, sometimes it hurts, but it teaches us something

now when I am not playing piano anymore, I always remember the lessons that Kak Lily has taught me..When I was lazy, she said,”u play piano first, then u do ur homework, I’m sure u hv time, coz u will do ur homework whether u want it or not, but if u keep postponing practice, u will not practice at the end” and that’s the principle that i use now..sometimes it’s a bit funny, but that’s how I manage to do all my projects even though at the end there was one time I had to start doing my chinese homework at 4a.m.!! she’s also an example for me for many things..She trains the students outside piano lesson time, just to make sure that they practice!!She doesn’t charge xtra fee for it. She let me go to her house to play piano every day for hours when I didn’t have piano..^^

my childhood dreams..

I also like writing..I wrote diary since primary school and I keep writing diary till now..

there was one time (not one time,one period of time) when I really want to write a book, either a novel or a compilation of short story..

and ‘tradaaaaaaaaa’.. Here comes technology called blog which allows me to write and write..

once more..I have buried another childhood dream..

ohhh..but maybe I’m not 100% burrying my childhood dream of writing a book..hehehe..every time I write a new post, I always live the dream again..especially because now I also write quite a lot of essays because of school assignments..hahaha..

ahhhhhhhh..another long post..a ’so-not-focused-and-not-related-with-title’ post..

but I ask you..

‘what’s your childhood dream? do u have courage to live your childhood dream?’

I want to be a teacher..a special teacher for special kids..^^

and I’m gonna open people’s mind through my writing..

ferninda

ps.is going to start studying Developmental Psychology SOON!!

Review of the material in Chapter 8 (Intelligence) of Berk (2009) and the implications for Singapore

November 23rd, 2009 by ferninda-kepang2

I’m more than happy to receive your comment. This is my midterm essay for Developmental Psychology. The grade is not really good, but I hope it will still be useful. ^^

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The definition of intelligence has gradually changed from time to time. Recent advances in defining intelligence combine psychometric and information-processing approaches. In this essay, I would like to review chapter 8 of Berk (2009) on intelligence. Then, I will discuss the implications for Singapore.

Berk (2009) has mentioned various theories on intelligence. One of these theories is Garder’s theory of multiple intelligence. Gardner (as cited in Berk, 2009) has introduced 8 kinds of intelligences: linguistic, logico-mathematical, musical, spatial, bodily-kinesthetic, naturalist, interpersonal, and intrapersonal intelligence. This new approach has many implications in Singapore, which I will discuss at the second part of this essay.

Berk (2009) has also mentioned about the measurement of intelligence. It is important to see how intelligence is assessed because nowadays people are curious about the relationships between cognitive processing and mental test scores. The most common indicator of intelligence is Intelligence Quotient (IQ) score. However, in spite of the strong correlation between IQ scores and school grades (Berk, 2009), Sternberg, Grigorenko, & Bundy (2001) show that the correlation varies in range for different samples, different tests, and different areas of achievement. Therefore, this correlation between IQ and school grades must be seen carefully. In addition, we should also realize that the standardized achievements usually overlap with IQ test. Another problem is the reliability ofIQ test. As an illustration, the Wechsler Intelligence Scale for Children-IV (WISC-IV), which a widely used IQ test for children (Berk, 2009), is consistently scoring lower than the Wechsler Adult Intelligence Scale-III (WAIS-III). Therefore, it must be used with precaution when we use WISC-IV to diagnose children with significantly low intellectual ability because of the possible floor effect (Whitaker, 2008). In order to solve this problem, Sternberg, Grigorenko, & Bundy (2001) suggested to correct the correlation of atenuation, correct restriction of range. Hence, we should not rely too much on one type of intelligence test.

In Berk (2009), Guignard&Lubart(2006) have stated that “creativity involves alternating between divergent and convergent thinking”. However, intelligence test only emphasizes on convergent thinking, result of which is a single correct answer, rather than generation of multiple possibilities which is produced by divergent thinking (Guilford, 1985, as cited in Berk, 2009). In addition, Jausovec & Jausovec (2000) show that there is a distinction in brain functioning between highly intelligent and highly creative individuals. It seems that the correlation between IQ and creativity is high because the difference between them only related to specific activity of the brain. Therefore, it is true that definition of giftedness should include creativity because intelligence as measured in intelligence test has not included creativity. In fact, as creativity requires various cognitive abilities that is not measured in intelligence test (Dietrich, 2004), we cannot deny that a child is gifted not only because he scores high in intelligence, but also because he is able to integrate his different cognitive abilities to produce something.

In the second part of the essay, I will explain the implications of chapter 8 about intelligence for Singapore. First, I will discuss how intelligence is measured in Singapore. Second, I will present how Singapore’s education system reflects Gardner’s theory of multiple intelligence. Third, I will analyze to what extent Gifted Education Programme (GEP) in Singapore has included creativity in the definition of giftedness. At the end, I will discuss early intervention system in Singapore’s context.

In the context of Singapore, they emphasize the importance of achievement tests to measure intelligence. Achievement test assess actual knowledge and skill achievement rather than potential intelligence (Berk, 2009).The evidence of how Singapore put more weight on achievement test is the use of Primary School of Leaving Examination (PSLE) as a foundation to stream the students to normal academics, normal technical, and express course in secondary school(Ministry of Education, 2009). Therefore, the intelligence that they measure is affected by their social and emotional factors. Children from a broken-home family and children with low socio-economic status might have problem coping with their study. On one hand, achievement test shows the students’ effort and motivation because it is a result of what they have studied. On the other hand, it might underestimate students’ real intelligence that cannot be seen in PSLE because of external factors.

The problem with PSLE is it only tests mathematics, English, science, and mother tounge language (MOE, 2009). Despite the fact that PSLE only assess logico-mathematical and linguistic intelligence, this test determines the students’ future to large extent because their streaming system is based on PSLE. Hence, this achievement test underestimates the importance of other aspects of intelligence. As a result, the students who are not high in logico-mathematical and linguistic might not get the same opportunity to achieve more things even though they might score high in other aspects of intelligence. As a solution, since 2005, normal technical students are allowed to take 1 normal academic subjects (MOE, 2005). This goes along with the Gardner’s theory because it allows students who are only strong in specific subject to challenge themselves by taking a higher module.

The problem of how the students are assessed also occurs in the screening test for GEP. Despite the relationship found between creativity and intelligence, the nature of how the students are categorized gifted does not include assessment on creativity. In Singapore, primary 3 students will have to do screening test to know whether they are eligible to GEP. The GEP screening tests consist of English language and mathematics. The shortlisted students will have to sit for another test consists of English language, mathematics, and general ability (MOE, 2009). In fact, gifted students who have a specific area in creativity in some fields, for instance, in arts, might not be in GEP because they might be weak in the areas tested in the screening test. Hence, the GEP selection system does not recognize the importance of creativity as part of giftedness because the test only focuses on convergent thinking ability.

Nevertheless, the programmes offered for the gifted students reflect the understanding of creativity as part of intelligence. They are offered “differentiated curriculum that is pitched to challenge and stretched item”. As an example, GEP programme offers Individualized Study Options which allows the students to do an independent research project according to the students’ special interest (MOE, 2009). This option might be a burden for non-GEP students if they do not have certain level of intelligence, but it provides a challenge for GEP students. That is why it is not offered in non-GEP. This programme also taps on creativity aspect of giftedness because the students are given opportunity to produce a novel research project according to their interest and the integration of different abilities that they have.

Gardner’s concept of multiple intelligences is also recognized in Singapore through the high demand of co-curricular activities (CCAs) and the integration of Community Involvement Programme (CIP).There are various CCAs offered in Singapore’s schools: sports, uniformed groups, performing arts groups, and club and societies (MOE, 2009). CIP is offered in secondary school and junior colleges. In this programme, the students are involved in community work (MOE, 2009). CCA and CIP can develop other aspects of intelligence that is not emphasized in the normal syllabus. As an example, CIP will develop students’ interpersonal and intrapersonal intelligence because they do not only need to be responsive to other people’s emotion, but they also learn to identify their inner feelings and values. In addition, even though the place of other aspects of intelligences in mainstream school is only in CCA and CIP, Singapore has specialised schools for the students who are excellent in sports and arts. They have Singapore Sports School and School of The Arts that they can choose after they leave primary school (MOE, 2009).

Berk (2009) also mentioned about the importance of early intervention. What are the relevance of early intervention and the discussion of the definition of intelligence? First, we have to see how early intervention works in Singapore. In this essay, the early intervention programme that I refer to is early intervention for children with special needs. The early intervention in Singapore starts with identification of children with developmental delay through various sources: hospitals, clinics, preschool centres, parents, relatives, or caregivers (Lim and Quah, 2004). Singapore has a lot of childcare centres which also provide services for children with special needs. The education system also allows the flexibility for them to continue in mainstream school (MOE, 2009).

Second, to understand the relevance of early intervention and the discussion of the definition of intelligence, I would like to discuss the possible implications of not having an early intervention. As stated earlier, Singapore has relied so much on achievement test to measure intelligence. Without early intervention, the children with special needs will be end up labelled as ‘low-ability students’. As an illustration, an autistic child has unique cognitive skills. He reads for information rather than for fictional enjoyment, he has an exceptional long-term memory for events and facts, and he is fascinated by a particular topic (Lim and Quah, 2004). Achievement test cannot display this unique feature. Achievement test will only show a low grade of language skill. The impression that the child created is unwillingness to cooperate because they seem unresponsive and uninterested in participating in class activities. Therefore, early intervention can help the children to achieve things according to their capacity. Singapore has promoted early intervention programme for children with special needs, starting from assessment and diagnosis of early identification, therapy and parent training supporting services, information and referral services, and integrated childcare programmes (Ministry of Community Development, Youth, and Sports, 2007).

In summary, Berk (2009) has succeeded to present the new approaches of the definition of intelligence, one of which is Gardner’s theory of multiple intelligences. It has influenced many aspects of education system. Students with an exceptional ability in certain field is more appreciated. The system also allows more integration among different skills of students. However, the impact of the streaming system needs further research because we do not know whether it affects their self-esteem and whether a stereotype exists because of the streaming system. The use of achievement test in Singapore to stream people also needs to be seen carefully whether it inhibits the intervention for students with high potential who do not have condusive environment, for instance, children with socio-emotional problem. The GEP has recognized the role of creativity in its programme, but it is restricted to people with exceptional ability in subjects tested in the screening test. In accomodating children with special needs, early intervention has been emphasized a lot in Singapore education system.


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bus 96

November 23rd, 2009 by ferninda-kepang2

Yesterday I met a very nice bus-driver. He greeted every one who got on the bus “good evening.. good evening”. When people alighted, he yelled from his seat “Good bye. Have a nice day” Sadly, the passengers, including me, just ignored him. hhhh.. i’m sorry,uncle..

When I went back from mass, I Met Carina in 151. Before she alighted at central library, I said “jia you” to her. I was the only passenger after Carina alighted. Then suddenly the bus driver talked to me in Chinese, I was confused and just said “I’m sorry”. Then, he asked, “Where do you come from?” I told him I’m from Indo then he said that he talked to me in Chinese coz just now he heard me saying “jia you”.

Ahhh..so nice…

There is a Bus B driver in NUS, also very nice. He put a lot of butterflies at the front glass. He always greets us “Good morning!” and when we alight, he always says, “See you. Have a nice day!” He always wears sunglasses. I recognize him from the butterflies and the sunglasses. Hehehe..

I think we really need to do simple thing like smiling and greeting other people. When I was in high school, the teachers always told us to greet not only teachers, but also staff, including housekeeping staff. I feel it very meaningful. It’s always nice to see people smiling, and most of the time we should start smiling to them, the aunties that clean the toilets, the uncles that u meet when u put your tray, they deserve our smile and thanks. ^^

revision diary_biological psychology

November 13th, 2009 by ferninda-kepang2

Yesterday was not very effective..but,i’ll try my best.

The chapter that I’m not confident with is the movement disorder. Honestly, I do not really understand Parkinson’s disease. Please correct me if I have made a mistake.

It’s related with the level of dopamine. According to my messy note, dopamine has dual function: inhibit D2 receptor(inhibitory pathway) and exhibit D1 receptor(excitatory pathway). In parkinson’s disease (what happens = loss of dopamine), decreased activity in direct path and increased activity in indirect path. What are these ‘direct-indirect’ path? These are the pathways which control movement. Direct path is the excitatory pathway which increases movement, while indirect path is the reverse. That’s why parkinson’s disease has two symptoms: positive symptoms (tremor, rigidity in movement) negative symptoms (lack of movement, balancing difficulty). If the inhibitory / indirect pathway becomes more active, it means the movement is more restricted (imagine: inhibit becomes inhibit more), it’s u pull a brake too often, it means that it is “released from inhibition”. *I was wrong,sorry!* so, it’s not like u pull a brake too often, but normal people are supposed to pull the brake. However, in the development of this disease, u can’t pull the brake. This aspect caused the positive symptoms: tremor, muscular rigidity, and involuntary movement. At the same time, the excitatory becomes less active.

I do not really understand the connection, but basal ganglia also played a role here. Dopamine level in the basal ganglia of prakinson patients was reduced to less than 10 percent of normal (from my textbook, lazy to cite). okay..after reading my lect.notes again,, the basal ganglia circuit that is explained in my lecture notes is more related to the glutamate role. so, Parkinson’s disease is not only about dopamine, but also glutamate and other neurotransmitter.

There’s something in on the super-messy part of my notes: hemibalism –> movie: can’t do what they want. The sub-thalamic nucleus degeneration in hemibalism results in overactive thalamus (coz actually the nature of this part is inhibitory) which results in too much cortical/ spinal stimulation and make them feel that they can’t do what they want, they can’t control their movement.

uhhh..anyway..try to watch ‘Awakening’..it’s supernice!!!!

cannot concentrate!

November 13th, 2009 by ferninda-kepang2

uhh..it’s very hard to concentrate on my study today..

T.T

my revision diary

November 12th, 2009 by ferninda-kepang2

I’m a bit bored of reading my lecture notes now..

so I just share with you what I’ve studied so far.

Today I revised my SSA 2209: Government and Politics of Singapore. I’ve managed to read through my lecture notes on civil society and democratization, political renewal, and my tutorial notes of “Is Singapore a Democracy?”

My lecturers left me with so many questions which are scattered here and there in my brain,like what things from 2006 General Elections will lead to change or no-change, what challenges of political recruitment in Singapore, and why Singapore is a democracy (or not?).

well, I don’t know whether Singapore is comparable with Indonesia, but when I read my lecturer’s question, ” How to accommodate national security and a vibrant civil society?”, I always remember what happened in Indonesia after 32-years of New Order (Orde Baru- Soeharto’s regime)

after 32 years, the civil society in Indonesia could finally express themselves, but it’s not always a good thing. Unlike Singapore, protest on the streets is super-common in Indonesia,but sadly, it is also common that the protest leads to riot. On the other hand, we do not have demonstration in Singapore, but at the same time, it seems that the civil society here is not as vibrant as in Indonesia.

People argue that the democracy in Singapore is “Non-Western democracy”, but is it true? The problem is,if Singapore is not a western-liberal-democracy, what kind of democracy do we have? (uhh..do I hv to answer this question for exam??) Ganesan (1996) stated 2 criteria which are the central of the spirit of democracy: equality and ultimate political power fit the people of a s state. Uhh.. I have not really read the article, but I agree with him that there is a sense of vulnerability in Singapore’s politics. there was one time when Singapore faced a challenge from the communists. Even though now the society has changed, it seems that we have not been ready to ‘western-liberal democracy’. But is it true that we are not ready? When will Singapore society be ready?

Ohh..btw,one indicator of a democratic country is a fair election.Singapore is not a corrupt country,but does it automatically mean that it has a fair election?The policy of redrawing the GRC-district boundaries is questionable because it seems that it always gives benefit only to one side.

btw,is it dangerous to write about this thing on blog??:P

now is week 11

November 12th, 2009 by ferninda-kepang2

I read my bestfriends’ post just now,then I want to start this post with the same tone, it’s been a long time since the last time I posted on my blog.

sometimes you just miss the things that you used to do.

I enjoy what I am doing now, I enjoy my school life (except deadline and exam), I enjoy my CCAs, I enjoy having fun with my friends here.

but sometimes you just miss the things that you used to do.

I enjoy dancing a contemp dance, but sometimes I just miss having dance practice every Saturday.

I enjoy myself in choir, but sometimes I just miss my normal neighborhood choir with aunties n uncles who just want to sing to the Lord..

ps. this post was written in week11 n was stuck in my draft folder HAHAHA

thank you

August 27th, 2009 by ferninda-kepang2

just wanna say thanks…^^

random things…

capekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk…

tiba-tiba aku jadi bertanya-tanya,kenapaaaaa???

kenapa aku ngelakuin ini??

kenapa aku ngelakuin itu??

kenapaa??

do I need reason??

hadohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh……

capekkkkkkkkkkkkkk….

bahkan aku belom kasih hadiah bwat diriku sendiri…T.T

mengkhianati janji untuk diri sendiri…

tiba-tiba pengen jalan2 lagi..

kangen ‘normal weekend’..

boleh ga tgl12 ga usah exco photoshoot n outing??

i just want to be alone sometimes..

baca novel..wewwww..enak….

muter2 di toko buku..

tidurrrrrr..zzzzzzzzzzzzzz…tlp mama..tlp temen..

hahhh..kangen kebiasaan itu..kangen kebiasaan telepon nic pril nyz fgg devi n ngobrol2 aja gitu..

hate online stuff!

terus terus,,

kangen makanan rumahh…

duhhhhhhh bsk tes chinese..

bersaing dg orang2 dr placement test..

ngaku2 mei guo ren,tapi emak bapak orang taiwan..hahaha..

orang2 ketawa2 aku ga ngerti lao shi nya ngomong apa..hahaha

random..so randommm..

kangen bakwan jagung..hahaha

SE2214

August 11th, 2009 by ferninda-kepang2

This module, SE 2214, is a southeast Asian studies module..Wayne told me that in this module we can learn basic Balinese dance in the tutorial.

This semester, that module has the same exam day with my PL2132, which is a statistics module. Therefore, I burried my dream to take this module. hahaha..

This morning, I was trying to take another SE module, SE 2221 because it’s also about Southeast Asia’s music. But the bidding point was very high..

I tried to take level 3000 module about Religion and Politics and Southeast Asia, no one bidded for it and it doesn’t have any exam. However, I realized that the only reason I want to take other Southeast Asian modules is my passion of Indonesian Arts and my curiosity about other Southeast ASian culture. ohhh..and I’ve never danced Balinese danced before!! I’ve never played gamelan either..This skill might not be as commercial as business skill,hahaha,,but I’m really curious!!!!hehehehe..

I’ve never felt that I really want one module (except psychology modules obviously), even I could feel my heart beats hard ONLY BECAUSE OF A MODULE CALLED SE2214..hahaha..

I’m glad and relieved because I choose the modules that I really want.

I’m a bit scared with the SS that I choose: Government and Politics of Singapore. hehehe.. So much readings!! But when I started to flip through the book, I realized that this module can give me what I want to know. I’m type of person who can’t stop comparing Indo n Singapore..hehehe..When I took Social Work module and even SE 1101E, I couldn’t stop comparing!! I also found that Singapore is not ‘as nice as I thought’ after I took those kinds of modules..

Sooo..with this expectation, I do hope that I can gain and give something from what I learn..

I’m also excited about my psychology modules. Bio psy and Developmental!! I LOVE Developmental psy..hehehe..I have not seen the book, but I always remember that there is one level 4000 module which requires me to take dev and abnormal..This module is called ‘Child Abnormal Psychology’ and when I’m stuck with all the statistics n tired with those thick psychology textbook, God reminds me about my dream to be a special ‘teacher’ for autistic children..

jia you,everyone!!!!!!^^

i wish i could hate u

July 21st, 2009 by ferninda-kepang2

this is my personal message on my msn..

hahaha..

i'm amazed when i realized that i can't hate ppl..hahaha

but sometimes i wish i could hate a person..

coz sometimes it just hurts me too much when i love the person but i have to let this person go..

life must go on..^^

then I remember bayushi's personal msg was "ppl fall in love by choice,but stay in love by chance" actually i think it works the other way..We often fall in love by chance, but we stay in love by choice..

sometimes i also wish to fall in love by choice..it's good nice to choose whom u want to love..but sometimes it's too complicated and u just feel that "it just happens!"u fall..fall to the deep river called love..

hahaha..

do i sound so poetic or philosophical or what?:P